The Queen's Heart

Hi guys,

Yes, I've been M.I.A. (missing in action) for a while... haven't been really partying... I've been rather bogged down... and for those of u needing my support, I'm sorry that I've neglected you... but that doesn't mean that I dun care... I hope you'd understand...

Anyway, thanks for all your well wishes on Carol's condition... Its nice to know that so many of you out there care... And thanks for all those who prayed for Carol in your daily prayers...
For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about, here are some background info... Carol's heart failure is due to a past thyroid problem gone bad... Her allergy to a wide span of drugs had made treatment to her thyroid incomplete and, in certain ways, ineffective...

The thyroid problem had landed her in the hospital for a number of heart failures in the past... these past heart failures had since worn out her heart valves... And now, because of the leak in one of her valves, her heart has to pump extra... the leak is now at a critical stage (on the verge of tearing)... and surgery is strongly recommended... (for more infomation you can read abt the surgery on http://www.cts.usc.edu/hpg-heartvalvesurgery.html ... yea... I've been doing alotta reading on her case)....

However, due to her current conditions, undergoing such an extensive surgery is very complicated and has very high risks... According to the doctors, they can't guarantee that the surgery will be a success and her chances dying under the surgery is 50-50... They too would not recommend a surgery but like they said, "there are no other options"... To them, its a gamble... do it, u may die (but there's a chance that u'd make it)... don't do it, u will die (matter of time)... thus, they recommend the surgery...

But for Carol, she doesn't want to go for the surgery... Since there was no sure success in the surgery, she rather leave things as they are... she said she knows of many patients who died on the surgical table whom may had lived (instead) for a few years more if they hadn't gone for the surgery in the first place... Its really hard to disagree with her on this as I, too, know of people who bit the bitter end of the options when they tried to make a dash for a probable chance of survival over the failing valves but didn't make it... Its like she's caught between the devil and the deep blue sea... Take that chance, succeed and she may just be fine thereafter... Take that chance, fail and she's gone... Don't take that chance, she may have live for a while longer (or maybe a lot longer... who knows)... itz only a matter of time before it becomes "too late" for anything to be done...

Well, I'm not gonna try to influence her to have the surgery done even though I think that that's the best option... whatever her decision is, I'll be behind her... but damn... I just wished that it was someone else... I know its not right for me to say this but I can't help it... I'm no saint... I'm still human afterall...

I've always been able to pull myself over the hard times.. I've stayed strong... We'll still stay strong... we'll pray for the best and hope that we'll pull this thru together....
I'll keep you guys posted here on KPNN... Cheers. (KPNN-NewsDesk)