Phantom Loses Custody..

Hi guys,

Its been three months since my last update on this site. Well, I've been real busy.. and I mean REAL BUSY..

As all of you know by now, that the custody battle that I am fighting with my Charon is now over.. And though the judgment of the Court wasn't something that I am satisfied with, I'm glad this had all ended.. Honestly, I got very tired (physically, emotionally and financially).. Its not that I'm giving up but.. thru all these years of fighting, it had caused Iggi much pain to be caught in the middle..

When the judgment was passed, I decided to accept the fate coz fighting on will only increase the sufferings of Iggi.. Weighing the injustice that I sufferred with what Iggi had to go thru, I rather make this sacrifice to swallow the hurt than to prolong Iggi's trauma arising from the conflicts that I have with Charon.. I just hope Charon will let all these pass as well and focus on letting Iggi resume "normal" life.. afterall, she got what she wanted (i.e. taking him to England). Though I know she is unhappy with the judgment as well, I just hope that she could accept that as I accepted it.. I'm not an unreasonable person and I'm still prepared to make concessions to those judgments made in my favour just as long as they are not overly demanding..

Why should I make any concessions after what she put me thru? Well, I love Iggi.. I only want what's best for him.. I've never been a tight-fisted person and I'm still willing to compromise for as long as there's a mutual benefit for Iggi..

This battle had left me with lots of scars.. and there is still a last case pending for which I would be charged in Court for breaking her window.. I may serve a jail sentence for that rash act eventually, but so be it.. whatever will be, shall be.. it'd all be over soon.. Thereafter, everything shall be under the bridge.. I'll move on..

As for my job, well.. the company's take-over bid is certain.. I had been reassured that I'd be able to keep my job but as for the pay package, nothing is finalised yet.. my boss had prepared us that we may have to take a pay-cut.. Whether to stay on after the pay-cut really depends on how deep is the cut..

Back at home.. my dad's health isn't getting any better. His left eye is totally blind now. His nerves are also failing. He can't feel much these days. At times it got so bad that he can't even get up without support. Yet, he's still not giving up. I guess he loves my mom too much to leave her behind. He constantly tells me that he really don't know how much he worries for mom when he thinks about not being around anymore. Sigh.. he's a strong man, isn't he? He never ever did give up on anything, has he? Dad, I'm proud of you.. If not for the living example that you had set for me, I really don't know how I'd be able to pull thru all these that I'm going thru right now..

As for mom, well, her health is failing day after day as well.. her right ear is totally deaf and her sight is failing as well.. Physically, she may seem fit but deep within, I know she, too, is struggling.. I can see how she is trying to out-live my dad for the same very reason that she can't bear to leave him behind on his own.. Their love for each other is so inspirational for me.. To a certain exent, I was much influenced by their steadfastness and perserverance. Thus, despite what I've went thru, I still found reasons to love, forgive and keep my hopes alive..

Finally, tonight.., before I sleep, I will pray that God will bless Iggi and to keep him in His best care. I wish Charon best of luck and hope she will find happiness in her new life in England. I also pray that God will bless my parents with less sufferrings and if, when their time is up, grant them a peaceful departure from this earthly world and embrace them in His loving arms in Heaven. I further pray that God will bless all those that are dear to me (colleagues, friends and relatives including Charon's dad, mom & family) with good health, happiness and strength to take on whatever life entails.

Last but not least, I pray that God will bless my beloved wife, Carol. May she stay healthy and happy. And... thank you, Lord.. for giving me all these beautiful people that came so dear to my heart.. meant so much in my life.. I thank God for watching over me despite all that I've been thru that had given me the opportunity to grow and to learn to love myself and these people so dear to me.. and to forgive those that had inflicted pain upon me.
(KPNN-Gossips)