Dear friends,
Thanks for all the help and concerns (really appreciate that... so who's says friends won't be around when we are down?)... Anyway, I am fine.. you guys should know me better... it will take a lot to knock me off my feet... but even then, I'd stand up in no time... the term, "giving up" is just not in my vocab...
I had not been out much these days because I need to spend more time with my family. Dad's health is getting worse each day and mom is going bonkers over it (yeah... tell me... u should know how paranoid she can get)... Also, I wanna cut back on my expenses to save some money... with no regular income forthcoming, one has gotta trim his expenses and be more prudent on his spendings...
Iggi is fine too... the last time I spoke to him, he had a cold... but other than that, he's ok... but I miss him so much... the sparkle in his eyes, the touch of his little hand, the scent of his sweaty head (he's ever active, u see)... sigh... ok... ok... I shan't go into that again... otherwise, I'll feel hurt again... now, I only look forward to seeing Iggi again next summer...
Iggi also said his mom find the things there (in the UK) very expensive and as such, there are some things that Iggi loves, they becomes a luxury now... I've just bought a whole long list of the stuffs he likes and sent it over... the freight is crazy and some may even say that with the freight in, its actually better off buying those stuffs there... but hey... I ain't gonna deprive my kid from the things he loves...
The property market is really very sluggish... had two ads up in the papers last week and there are only 3 calls and not even a single viewing... I've resorted to doing surveys for Jacq in the evenings to supplement some income... don't get much but enough to pay my bills and the Official Assignee... its really hardwork going from door to door... having doors slammed at me so often (geez... can't Singaporeans be more gracious)... I'm not asking for charity... just asking for a chance to earn my dues by granting me a survey (and they get paid as well)...
I tell you, every penny earned has its sweat and blood... every dollar earned was only after miles that I've walked with doors slammed on my face... with the little income I get from these surveys, its hard meeting the payment schedule to the Official Assignee but I wanna get discharged next year so I can't default on that... I've just gotta pull myself along...
Anyway, things aren't all that bad... in fact, things are slowly falling into place now... I've done my time and Iggi had left for UK with his mom... that, should put a closure on these two issues... and so far... Iggi had cope better than I thought... guess he's also a fighter like his old man and his grand dad... except I do miss him terribily though... and I do wish he can call me more often...
It will be a very long road ahead... sure, there'd be people that will shun me... and finding a job won't be easy (I mean, at 40, a bankrupt and an ex-convict... hello???)... and even now, my day-to-day livelihood is at stake... but at least I've got my family and a few good friends... in fact, that's all I need... Like what Fr Paul says, "material comforts, fame, good-time friends... they are, but just, paintworks to a house... our character and our values form its foundation... our family, its pillars... our true friends, its roof... and God.. he's the land that our house is built upon..."
So... that's really all I need... and I've got them all with me here (including Iggi, he's close here in my heart and I know that I am too in his)... I've got a great family and a few faithful friends... so what if I've lost everything else??? Last weekend, I went over to Jinghao's place with Carol, Anthony, Jacq and William... we only had the Pineapple Rice that I cooked for dinner... but it was certainly one of the best meals that I've ever had... that's what these friends of mine filled that pot of Pineapple Rice with... warmth and love...
For those of you whom are still chasing rainbows for that pot of gold on the other side, take heed... that pot of gold may just be right beside you... GOLD... its how u see it... for me, what I have now is better than any amount of gold that I could possibily have... sure, it'd be nice if I can find gold... but I certainly won't throw away all I have now to go chasing it...
Well, I'll now leave you guys with a beautiful song Click Here to listen to it. Its called "Wildfire"... very nice lyrics (pls see below)...
(KPNN-Gossips)
Artist: AMERICA
Song: Wildfire
She comes down from Yellow Mountain
On a dark, flat land she rides
On a pony she named Wildfire
With a whirlwind by her side
On a cold Nebraska night
Oh, they say she died one winter
When there came a killing frost
And the pony she named Wildfire
Busted down its stall
In a blizzard he was lost
She ran calling Wildfire [x3]
By the dark of the moon, I planted
But there came an early snow
There's been a hoot-owl howling by my window now
For six nights in a row
She's coming for me, I know
And on Wildfire we're both gonna go
We'll be riding Wildfire [x3]
On Wildfire we're gonna ride
Gonna leave sodbustin' behind
Get these hard times right on out of our minds
Riding Wildfire
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